不折的手

親愛なる君へ :

我永遠記得左學長那雙「氣張而不折」的手 : 看似柔弱如潺潺流水，實則剛強，萬鈞之力亦難折煞。每每見學長的「單手抓外迴轉」，氣隨勁走 ; 外人覺得其手被制，然開敞之手心，卻實際上緊緊牽動外來的勁道，掌控全局，環繞中心不斷旋轉!

如此基礎的基本功，竟涵蓋至重至深的人生哲理! 演練過千百遍的技法，想不到今日才真正體會其中奧義!

我往日對於幸福的執著，原來是那樣的狹隘! 越來越是握緊的雙手，什麼都抓不到。而且還不以為警惕，越是求而不得，越是盡力爭取，抓的更緊 ! 抓到指甲陷進肉裡，力竭了、心痛了、傷了自己、也傷了身邊的人~~~! 現在，把心放開，才猛然驚覺，我的執著讓幸福遠走、放開的手卻感覺幸福還一點點地溫暖著手心!!!

執著，放在心裡就好了! 太過分的我執，看似很有原則，其實卻給人喘不過氣的感覺 !

行筆至此，真想大笑三聲、劈劍一千、再好好地大醉一場! 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~~~~ 難怪我從以前到現在對洪七公和喬峰就是情有獨鍾，也許 我天生就是 個 閒散漂泊 的酒鬼 ~~~

【眼看人間百態、大義存心；笑談荒唐事，一醉了恩仇】

PS: 感謝朋友們的關心，我於文中從來沒有提及《親愛なる君へ》指的是誰! 我想以後也不用提! 因為這《親愛的你》，可以是任何人、也可以不是任何人，當然，也有可能是心裡不存在的人!

意志與體能の對抗

親愛なる君へ :

自2007年迄今，加入健身運動的我已經持續兩年有餘！

最近學校健身館暨學生活動中心落成，剛好，我也剛從台灣養了一圈肚子回到美國，為了不讓之前的努力「往下掉」，我和由樹仍然維持一週三次的基本健身時間！

窗外陽光和煦，新的健身館很是寬大，雖然還是聞得到樓下游泳池的氯氣，但總體來說空氣、設備、舒適性都改進步不少！（至少，不會像之前的鳥地方，人擠人，不時還會有美國人的體味、香水味，還有屁味！！！）

每次健身時間大約不超過兩小時，從一開始的暖身慢跑，及至針對固定體能的孤立訓練，我們絕不馬虎，但也不會操之過急！兩年下來的經驗，我們堅守一項原則：『寧可不進步，也不受傷』;「穩妥」二字是為必要！

其實，我健身的目的在於體適能，希望能寄鍛鍊強健體魄之力，予健全心智、意志之效！所謂內則以堅強意志而培養毅力恆心 ; 外則以強健筋骨而造就體力及耐力！

還記得剛開始健身的頭個月，那是腰酸背痛，坐立難安！但是一旦養成習慣，有時雖汗水淋漓、渾身疲憊，但仍精神健望！所以每次健身都要向自己的潛能挑戰！這次可以舉100磅，下次就要試試舉105磅！這說很容易喔，其實是很掙扎的：想想，肢體上的酸痛，還要做出平常不能做到的體能，這是…...意志與體能的對抗，也可以說，是意志力與體力的協調！

健身項目之一：二頭肌的孤立彎舉

這項是我認為最難的其中一種！因為進步很慢，一稍鬆懈，也很容易退步！而且，也容易不慎而受傷！

（說實話，我沒想過要練得力氣很大，倒是想把二頭肌練大一點！！！男人嘛～～～穿短袖時好看用的～～～呵呵！）

倦鳥

親愛なる君へ :

今年七月為了幾顆爛牙回台灣求救，過了整整一個吃喝玩樂、心情卻是沈佃佃的暑假！一踏上國土，熟悉的語言吵得我耳朵發疼！當然，隨即而來的是空氣，鼻子馬上就出現過敏的症狀！回到台南，光是一道道的小吃讓我的腸胃沒一刻閒著！貼心的牙醫每次只幫我治療一邊的牙，不耽誤小吃送進嘴的時間！

回來了，當然得在某種程度上「昭告天下」！說實在的，我真的沒啥好說的！我也知道大家都是關心，只是每見一個人都得再被問一次同樣的問題，然後我又得在細細地說明一次，真的有點累ㄝ！下次回去，我看乾脆開個記者招待會好了！

這個七月，真是體會良多！什麼叫做人情冷暖、什麼是刻在心裡的情感、什麼是人情包袱、什麼可是稱作「別有用心」？？？我想我多少是知道一點了！（雖然瘋瘋癲顛的，可我這雙眼還是雪亮的！反倒越是離我較遠的人，常常可以點頭知意！）

我真該好好體會、學習 鄭燮 有名的『難得糊塗』！把事都看給穿了，有時候不免落得孤家寡人的感覺！有時覺得很遺憾，身邊能親近的人，多半不瞭解自己，也不見他們用心來瞭解！（也許我也不盡然能瞭解他們）

現在，我不求什麼！只希望身邊多幾個知音人，只要能淡淡如水，也許清茶一杯、薄酒一壺，可談家常，可論古道今，那也就夠了！

Sugar Creek 『Brownies』

Connie : Go Everywhere

Take a look at this fat brownie….it's a small mouth bass!

That's right! I got this beauty under the bridge behind me.

I was so excited…that I've got no words to describe my happiness. This is my first small mouth bass and it has 37 centimeters.

This small mouth bass lives in Sugar creek. Probably she has never been caught. Look at her fat and perfect body….definitely more pretty than large mouth bass. Moreover, smallies fight till the last minute which gives fishermen unforgettable "pulling."

Rod: Daiwa 6.6' medium light

Setting: Drop shot

Lure: Jackall Flick Shake 4.8" worm (red flakes)

The left one is caught by Yoshiki! He got it in the first 10 minutes. We released them in a tiny pond under a tree before we were done with the fishing there.

After taking the pictures, we reluctantly release them in the creek. Hope they grow bigger and we may see them again next time!

I'm Loving BIG BASS

The Burns Lake in Hawthorn park was the first place where I started to do lure fishing. It's a beautiful lake surrounding by a forest, hiking trails, and camping sites, and family BBQ facilities. Hawthorn park is located around the back of Rose-Hulman Institute of Technology (almost 15 to 20-minute drive from my apartment).

Take a look at the scenery….!!! Really hope we have this kind of beautiful parks in Taiwan.

Hawthorn park has lots of wild animals. It's spring time…so it's quite usual for people to see snakes, geese, turtles, ducks, and so on. This snake is probably a baby Northern Water snake.

Connie is still my best company….she takes me everywhere without any complaints and she never says "No."

I love you, Connie! Really……I really hope I could still be with you when I go back to Taiwan.

Toyota --- --- --- MOVING FORWARD

Do I look tanned? Oh, absolutely!

I've been enjoying outdoor fishing activities a lot recently.

I still remember the first three days in 2008: I didn't catch anything at all.

The picture was taken in Chinook Fish & Wildlife Area. I was using Texas rig with a Yum Crawbug. (1/8 bullet weight with 4/0 Owner Twistlock Hook.)

Oh! The rod and reel is my new fishing "weapon" :

Gander Mountain Advantage Series IM6 6.6' Medium Casting Rod

Shimano CU201 E7 (left-hand retrieve, 6+1 Ball Bearings, 7.0:1 Gear Ratio)

This picture was taken in the unknown lake beside Hawthorn park.

I guess it is over 37 centimeters.

Rig: Texas rig (1/8 bullet weight with Owner Twistlock Hook)

Lure: Gender Mountain 10" Grape color, Ribbon-tail worm

Oh! This is not a bass….!!! This is a puppy!!!!!! Hahahahahaha……

I broke my own record on June 3, 2009. This fat cutie was caught in Hawthorn park.

Rig: Drop shot (3/16 bell weight with GAMAKATSU 1/0 drop shot hook

Lure: Berkley Power Bait 4" black/blue, curly-tail worm

I measured it…it's 45 centimeters.

WaaaaaaaHaaaaaaa….I feel Soooooooooo…….. GOOD!

春天釣魚去

親愛なる君へ :

五月天氣漸暖，我的釣竿和魚餌們也蠢蠢欲動！
暑假已經開始，我偷了幾天的閒情，去拋了幾竿！結果大咬！
哈哈哈哈......！
現在論文進度暫時停一下！我的心情實在很想逃離這裡，透透一口悶氣！
也許就是待在這裡太久了，真想回台灣休息一陣子！
（唉！機票這麼貴我真是開不了口！）

Baby, Alien, and Bass

What the heck with my face!

Do I look like an alien from Mars, trying to kidnap a cute baby?

Hahahahahahaha…

The baby just took a look at me and he was probably thinking: where are you from, strange uncle!!!

Well, I once played peekaboo with him at Anchang's apartment. The baby was actually giggling after he saw my face!

Well, he started to cry after he found out this face was actually not his favorite!hahahahaha...

Coming back to Terre Haute, I went to Chinook again and got four fish in an hour!

Look at this beauty…she fought really hard!

This one was actually bigger…I guess it was almost 40 centimeters. Look at her fat belly…she was really feeding! While the sunset shone on the fish's body, the sense of joy came to my mind! After the picture, I set her free with all my gratitude, hoping that she will grow bigger in this coming summer!

Fish of over 14 inches can be kept by fishermen in Chinook Fish & Wildlife Area. But I still believe in catch-and-release spirit so that we may better maintain the population of bass. Our next generation can thus enjoy the happiness of fishing outdoors in the future.

Friendship & Memory

Nuria came back to Terre Haute for a short visit last week. It has been more than two years since she graduated from ISU. I was so excited and happy to see her. Looking at her smiles, I couldn’t help but recalling all the memory we had while we were taking courses together.

What I remember about this beautiful classmate? – She is diligent, smart, always positive, humorous, and the most important of all, kind to others. I know this may sound a little trivial for others, but not for me: Nuria was the first classmates I met who submitted her papers always with clean cover pages. Well, she did not need to do it unless it was requested by professors. As far as I am concerned, this showed the responsible spirit and respectful attitude toward the course, the professor, and her own hard work, and that did not reveal among many American students.

Nuria and I talked a lot while she stopped by the Language Lab. She thinks about going to some Asian countries like Korea and China and teaches English there. Wherever Nuria goes and whatever she does, she will always have my best blessing and friendship. Hope…we will meet in Taiwan or Asia some day.

智慧讓愛常駐

親愛なる君へ:

為什麼你/妳不懂我要的是什麼?

為什麼我在你/妳身上感受不到相對等的愛?

我為你/妳付出那麼多，你/妳都感受不到嗎?

不求任何回報的愛情很令人欽佩，也很嚮往 (事實上，不可能!要真是不求回報，那還真是什麼問題都不會有了!)

但是這樣的感情真的存在嗎? 就算真的有，付出與收受這樣深刻的感情，所要承受的代價又是什麼? 真的發生時，不會覺得沉重嗎? 或者，當我們用自以為為對方好、愛對方的方式去付出時，真的是對方所要的嗎? 倘若不是對方所能承受的愛情，一但得不到相對等的付出，是不是就可以責怪對方愛得不夠呢?

所以要真是愛一個人，是不是應該用對方喜歡的方式去愛呢?

長久的感情需要細膩地去經營，往往有智慧的相處模式都有其特質：「熱情、尊敬、開闊心」。兩人在一起一定要有熱情，衝勁及荷爾蒙的化學變化，會臉紅心跳，會活力十足，為生活不時地添加感情催化劑! 可熱情也不能太多，天天都有驚喜，那就不算是驚喜了!

然後是尊敬! 世上很難有完美的一對璧人，就是現在感覺契和度百分百，人也會隨著境遇、歷練、及成長經驗而改變! 尊重彼此雙方面的差異才是學習真愛的道路!

最後是開闊的心! 人都會犯錯，更何況是這麼熟悉的枕邊人! 愛-有很多時候會讓我們忘記如何去原諒，而放不下的後果，甚至會讓自己想不起當初是如何愛上對方的。人生太短暫，與其浪費時間冷戰、吵架，那還不如先說聲抱歉，冷靜地溝通，然後更知性與感性地去享受兩人的相互陪伴與愛情!
(想想，如你的人生縮短為三天的假期，你要不要用一天的時間去和對方吵架?) 原來用腦子去想事情, 遠不如用心去想事情來得深! 原來深刻而長久的感情, 是略苦而回甘的清茶: 淡如水卻又餘味繞喉! 早上窗台前的鴿子把我叫醒，看他在寒風中抖動羽翅，咕咕地叫著：好像在告訴我，別浪費時間了!今朝了悟，你的人生將自此而明朗!!!

Empty Myself

I once felt I deserved every ounce of glory, love, and rewards since I worked so freaking hard. I fought against all the difficulties and torture like a dirty dog in the streets. What I learned to survive and what I earned from each drop of sweat constructed who I am today and what I will be tomorrow. I was proud of my success. I did not let myself tolerate those who are rich and indolent, OR those who have everything without making much efforts. And therefore, yes, I was impatient, proud, narrow-minded, and self-contained.

Well, I am not saying I already change all those bad characteristics and become a brand new FRANK. But I definitely can say…knowing myself is the first step and lots of improvement has been made.

So…I should empty myself…like an empty bottle…ready to fill with anything…so that I will grow, learn, and be strong.

PS: There will be still something in which I persist as for myself. I may like to call them self-disciplines or principles. But as for interpersonal relationship, I will offer more compromises than I used to do. This is because I learn to respect the differences among people.

By the way, here is my favorite baseball player, Ichiro Suzuki. I like him because he said: “It’s my job to fight against the pressure once I step into the stadium,” and “as a baseball player, the game and the stadium are primary things that I should pay all my attention.” So…for those Taiwanese baseball players and coaches, stop talking and go practicing, practicing, and practicing. ……And, yes, I mean what I just said and I insist on it.

反省

親愛なる君へ :

和平主義大爛人: 我一直以為自己是個好好先生! 反正還有什麼事是好計較的，深呼吸，算了啦，不是他們的錯!
真相: 表面上息事寧人，一切都可以原諒、好好談談就好了嘛! 但骨子裡，我在生氣，大大地不爽! 我好像會一直催眠自己，壓抑住真實的心情 : 別介意，他們以後會改的! 唉，生什麼氣，難道和他們一般見識嗎? 待有一天怒火滿溢，便很難有平反的餘地，火燒傷了他人，也吞噬了感情!

迂腐、怕違背傳統 : 我心中有份正義感，讓我忌惡如仇!但今日才發現，所謂的【正義】，有時不過是假道學 : 光明正大的旗幟，也可能因時間、空間的不同而轉身成為邪惡的化身!
我不能再讓這種虛偽的口號綁住我的手腳!

無神論 : 祂們無權判斷我是善還是惡! 我知道自己是個有善心的人，而這也就夠了! 有沒有天堂或是地獄，誰也說不清楚! 再說了，是上帝也好、菩薩也罷，祂們根本感受不到人內心的痛苦!